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Daylight

This morning, in my prayer time, I heard myself boldly pray:
God, if there are still pictures with hidden pain, inside my mind
Bring them forth, reveal, for I need healing from you
I don't know, what's still left, nor allready done, Lord make a way

Hours passed, and the home group came together again
We talked about friendship and divorce
Shared stories, no problem in talking, together as friends
Until something awakened a picture, from just before the real divorce began

And I looked at myself,standing in the kitchen, late at night, darkness ahead of me
Words cannot describe, the amount of loneliness and pain
Knowing, he one day wouldn't come back but would live with someone else
Losing future, losing hope, losing light to see

Everytime that picture came, an ocean of feeling made its way
I tried to suppress, tried to hide
But it kept coming, especially when I closed my eyes
And a question was asked: I see your struggle, shall we pray?

Lord, what to do? I'm afraid to face that feeling, afraid when others look at me
In faith, I decided to trust, to accept to be held
And the hurtful feeling came, but Jesus said: look at me
I'm the Radiant Morningstar, and darkness became day, when they prayed for me

5-10-05